Life Really Can't Be Planned

drawing by my 5 year old - leave it to your imagination - what do you see?
My husband and I might not have it all, or be where we may want to be today but we make the most out of everything possible.  After all there's always something missing, and one more thing that would make something "perfect."  But most of those are just human wants, not necessarily needs.     

Ever watch vlogs, and read blogs and think "why is my life not as fun as that?"  I do.  I'm not afraid to admit it either.  Subconsciously so, but I often find myself comparing my life to others, then again don't we all?  Despite the bumps on the way that continue to present itself, I'm fully content in my life today, I'm highly grateful for every day in my life, and every day I get to spend with my loved ones.  I lost my mom when I was in high school, and know first hand what losing a loved one feels like - even though I still find myself in disbelief that she's really gone.  The few times that I have dreamed of her in my sleep, she was on vacation and I kept asking her when she was going to come back, and in my dreams I always feel how anxious I am to tell her all about the things she has missed.

Losing my mom, finding out and then learning to live with my sons food allergies have been my two most challenging hurdles in life.  It is also what makes me stronger and wiser today.  One day I was the baby of my family, carefree, naive, way too innocent for my own good or age - then everything happened so fast.  My life started before I could stop to "plan" it, before I could realize I was an adult.  Many have their perfect stories, mine is far from it, but I also think there's many who can relate to my story as well.  You can't really "plan" life anyway, you can have an idea of what you want and go after it, but you don't know what life has in store for you.  When I was pregnant with my son, I had planned to continue working, continue my studies - but who knew he would need me 24/7 to keep him safe from food allergies. 

Life can't be planned.  Never in my wildest most horrific dreams did I think my mom wouldn't live to be a grandmother, never did I imagine in my nightmares that food could kill.  I live my days knowing an innocent "everyday food" can kill my son, that is just so wrong.  I don't stress little things in life, I try not to, as there are troubles much greater than that.  I like to be grateful for things many take for granted, as they can be taken away from you in an instant. 

So I may not have it all or be where I want to be in life today.. sometimes - I'm so grateful for my life today!  Way too many good to be ruined by the bad.